I’ve got a neighbor. He’s turning out to be a good friend. He tells me he is 73 yrs. old and you would not know this just by looking at him. He’s pretty athletic and active. Last night as we were talking, he asked if he could share something with me. I said, “Sure, shoot.” He said he has been looking over his life and does not like what he sees. He then said “I have been stripping away all the fiction in my life. I’m searching for the truth and I keep coming up empty. All I have left is fiction.”
As he spoke, I detected despondency in his voice and some residual anger from the loss a 12 million dollar advertising agency that he’d previously owned. The painful loss of a previous marriage and an inability to regularly see his grown children added to his emptiness. He said to me, “Morris when I look at my life now, I got nothing.”
Life is like an onion. You peel away the layers and sometimes you weep (Doraz). The older we get ,the more history we have; thus the more mistakes made and revealed — more layers, more opportunity to weep. As we get older we tend to assess things. We look at our gains and our loses, what’s really important. While sorting through the layers of life and striping away fiction, we come to address the truth of our lives and in so doing, hopefully, we come to realize new chapters are available to write. It’s good to take a look back, but always remember (like driving a car) there is a very good reason why the rear view mirror is so much smaller than front windshield.
At one point as I listened to him speak, I became concerned that he might be considering ending his life. Later it became abundantly clear to me that he was not. I was relieved to know that. Suicide is not the answer. Sorting through the fiction, looking for the truth of life and being willing to change– that’s the heart of the matter. The essence of life is the journey, the assessment and being wise enough to make course changes along the way.
Glad you stopped by to spend a few moments with me today, see you at my next post and as always
Have A Great Day!